Day: January 7, 2016

I have realized one thing. Advice I have given many friends, also applies to me.

This advice for instance: Really think your words through before you put them out there for every one else to hear.

I have no real excuse for my recent behavior….only that it has been a very trying 2015….and instead of following some list of grieving and hurting, like apparently “normal” people do…

I pushed emotions and words aside that I should have explained….And proceeded to only say them at said times when they were not pertinent to my current situation….

So in essence. I cannot apologize for the parts of me I know were being honest. But I can apologize for not choosing my words more wisely.

Also, So far I am digging 2016…..

Today’s events keep fading. Conversations. The odd feelings. The tears. Other details…just keep fading. 
And I feel like the lights inside of me are flickering back on. I see my goals again. I have things lined up…
It’s as if my life just needed a minute…to help me let go and grieve. Before I set out to volunteer my life to missions. 

I have been blessed. It’s time for me to continue forward, and give back all that has been done for me. And then some. 
Life, I love you.